By the way, to anyone who might be reading this, I’m thinking about joining Weight Watchers. Is it kind of like Alcoholics Anonymous, but for food? I will fully admit that if I see a brownie, I can’t just walk away! I don’t mean to belittle those who need AA by comparing it my inability to avoid Dairy Queen, but it really is a legit issue for me. Last week, I realized that I kept popping candy in my mouth to keep myself from crying about rude comment someone made to me. Food is my comfort!
Problem is, I’m a grad student. The stipend keeps me afloat, but doesn’t leave a lot of wiggle room for extraneous expenditures like WW meetings. I feel like I need to talk to folks who are in the same boat as me though. Both of my roommates are tiny and look great in bikinis. They rarely think about food except that it’s required at certain intervals throughout the day. They don’t diet or think about what they’re eating because they don’t need to: they never developed the unhealthy relationship with food that I did…which means they (and other people like them) don’t understand why it’s a struggle for me. I can’t “just lose weight.” I need a complete paradigm shift.
At the moment, I’m keeping up pretty decently with exercise…even though it’s made me gain weight from muscle. When I first noticed that my cycling was making my calves bigger, I about had a heart attack. Not what I wanted to happen! But I’m trying to stay faithful anyway. If staving off diabetes and heart disease is what I’m after, more muscle is better than more fat, even if it tips the scale in a direction I’m not too excited about. It’s gotta start melting the pounds sometime!
Oh well. So what do y’all think about WW meetings? Yay or nay? Helpful, or just money-draining? Anyone out there have ideas?
